the words of a mentor...' You always want to make the people around you happy...It effects your leadership'. these words rings in my head everr since that day. Mr Nice guy don;t get nowhere it seems. the decisions I've made during my few leadership roles given to me always seem to get me into trouble cause i wasn't forceful enough to ensure works get done. I vowed to change it. Those words rang truth in my head. I've known it, but i ignore it.

Well gradually I've made decisions that cause a bit of unrest to the people around me. They come around soon after. But my latest, caused a loss in my journey of life. I lost a friend, I think. I made a harsh decision you might say. A truthful one. A decision with no biasness of the person or people around who were friends. friends are suppose to stick by each other? Aren;t they? But what friends are we if we cannot make a decision that is truthful not only to yopurself but to your friend. Be it the friend knows or is oblivious to the fact, or maybe simply too proud to see it.

That was my decision, if i was a girl I'd be called a bitch... then again with the way way vulgarities are thrown to people, I can be called a bitch. So hi... I'm Haider the BITCH. Love me or hate me. I am nice, seriously I am. But if you put yourself in a position that sucks for yourself. I won't run, no I won't nor will I pleasure you by sucking your dick. I'd open my hole and screw you till u'll hate me for it. Then again, if you're wise,you'll learn that this bitch is a friend. A friend that has no fear to ensure that his friends will learn in life.

One thing that people seem to forget. That I only do the necessary. Even if I did something that was against you, the act is not a gesture of pulling our friendship. No not at all, I'm here after you've cooled off. I never ahve an intention to break any friendship. Never did, never will. Friends means the world to me. always have, always will. Know this and don't wrong my actions. For it is sad that you will think so lowly of me, to do such a stupid thing.